PERSPECTIVE


Every morning when I wake up I have to take a second to remember where I am... a hotel room in Isle Voletta, Louisiana... and then I have to have a cigarette (the reasons for that are twofold... one simply because of the habit... the second is because I'm south of the Mason-Dixon... well south at that...) to gather my wits and try to remember why I'm here...

While he was alive, Tony wrote much about this place. He never named it (except to me as we lay under the blankets in that first sub-zero winter in his Manhattan co-op) but the references were extreme... in his short stories, plays, but most especially in his music... God could he write music... lyrics so poetic they flowed almost as effortlessly as the music he wrote to accompany them... any one of those lyrics could stand alone as a completed work in itself. But they were very often dark, with underlying messages of pain, alienation, lonliness, despair, and hopelessness. Not all were that way mind you... Tony's work was becoming much too popular and fashionable to be completely depressing... Lord knows I was making a good living just performing the stuff he was turning out... but I digress...

Laying in bed on those cold winter's nights, he would tell me tales of some of the things he imagined he had seen during the travels he made before he settled down in Manhattan to write... and the most imaginitive tales of all he attributed to his stay in Isle Volletta. Strange goings-on... intrigues, murders, collaborative efforts by unrelated peoples who still considered themselves united in a "family"... it had a profound if not extraordinary effect on Tony until something happened... I only wish i knew what... but what ever it was, it was the reason he left Isle Voletta, the reason he went to the other end of the country, the reason his writing was so dark, and the reason he estranged himself from all who knew him previously.

After Tony died in the car crash, all I could think about were the stories he would tell about this dark, humid, Godforsaken place. Life was hell at home without him, so I decided to come for myself and find out first hand what this little island was like...

Imagine my surprise in finding out everything he said was correct.

Imagine my surprise in finding out that it was going to be my new home.

Right out of "Streetcar Named Desire" a kind stranger puts me up in the finest hotel in town with no designs on me other than friendship. I fall hard for a man who loves (and supposedly is loved by) another. Job opportunities begin to appear. As do people I don't hesitate to call friends. And yet underneath it all, subtle but distinct evil... Tennessee Williams, John Steinbeck, and Truman Capote could have had a field day in this town... who knows maybe they did...



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